So I'm just putting this out there!

Lately I have been thinking about all the attention I will and have been getting since I've lost weight. I catch my self and wonder am I doing this for all the right reasons? I think how nice it will be to not be the fattest person in my family. I'm talking about my extended family. In laws and such. I am still the fattest person in my immediate family!! So why is it that I want the attention for doing something that I need to do for my health?? It's not for more attention?? Is it?? I think about what people will say who haven't seen me in a long time! I imagine they will say wow!! I also think about how it will make someone in my family feel who also needs to lose a lot of weight? Will it make me feel good?? Will it make me feel bad for them?? Should I even be thinking about this stuff?? I haven't talked to anyone about this. It sounds selfish to me to even think about this stuff?? Well that is what going on in my brain. So like I said I'm just putting it out there.