It has been such a long time since I have been on here. What's been going on? I have been hanging in there! I am about 8 lbs up right now and I have re dedicated myself to this on going battle. I have new motivation now. # 1 my wonderful parents are taking me and my hubby on a cruise in Feb. I don't want to be the fat girl who's embarrassed to be in public in a bathing suite. I want to enjoy my first cruise. I want it to be the best experience ever! I want to blend in with everyone else. I have to admit that I am very afraid of the loose skin issue but I can't let that stop me. #2 my daughter who will be 30 and in June of 2012 she will be getting married! My first out of 3 children to finally get married. I can't wait! I know the pictures will be around forever and I want to look good not be the fat Mom! The other day I was telling my granddaughter that something was wide and she said it's fat like you granma! I really wasn't upset with her she is only 3. I did tell her that some people would get their feelings hurt if she said that to them. I am secure with who I am and what I am FAT! I'm OK with that but I do want to look and feel better! So the reason I am getting back into this is because I want to eat right now some really cheese nachos with jalapenos but I decided I would write instead! I need to find other things to do besides eat! Well its getting late now and I guess I will go to bed!
Wish me luck!?
