I made it through another big holiday!

I survived Thanksgiving!  I made it through a holiday without a gain!?  The question is did I?  My scale says I'm up 2lbs. But.... When I went to go workout today the scale said I was the same or maybe .5lbs lower. I'm gonna go with the dr type scale and not my 30$ digital one!  Especially since I'm sure it's a much better scale and I didn't gain!  I guess I did ok. I know I still ate more then I should have but I wasn't uncomfortable so I'd consider that a good thing I didn't stuff myself to the gills!  I think for now until after the beginning of next year I'm going to leave Mfp as a maintain and not lose calorie intake!?  I still want to lose more weight so I'm hoping I will. But I want to give myself the option to enjoy what I want If I want it!?


I started this last week but never finished it. I did change my calories! Haha

Happy Friday!!??

It would be much nicer if I didn't have to work on Saturday but I did have yesterday off!! I will be spending next week all day with my granddaughter. Her mom has been off work for the last 6 weeks and she is going back to work on Monday. I said I would keep her to help her save the money she would have to spend on daycare. I'm only working Monday and Tuesday next week and she can come with me. My hours are only 10-3. So it makes for a pretty short day! She's always good for me so it's no problem. Not much going on on the pool business this time of year! Looking forward to thanksgiving?? Not sure yes and no! I know I will do fine! And I plan to work out everyday so I know that will help!

So super excited about our cruise coming up in February. I feel so good for once in my life I have achieved something I actually hoped for! It feels amazing!! I really love my life right now. I feel good. I'm no longer on diabetes meds. I have new much smaller clothes. My daughter and granddaughter live with us and I get to spend almost everyday with them. My oldest daughter is going to have a baby in May. My son has a new good job! And I will be celebrating our 34th anniversary in dec! Love, love, love it!

So I'm just putting this out there!

Lately I have been thinking about all the attention I will and have been getting since I've lost weight. I catch my self and wonder am I doing this for all the right reasons? I think how nice it will be to not be the fattest person in my family. I'm talking about my extended family. In laws and such. I am still the fattest person in my immediate family!! So why is it that I want the attention for doing something that I need to do for my health?? It's not for more attention?? Is it?? I think about what people will say who haven't seen me in a long time! I imagine they will say wow!! I also think about how it will make someone in my family feel who also needs to lose a lot of weight? Will it make me feel good?? Will it make me feel bad for them?? Should I even be thinking about this stuff?? I haven't talked to anyone about this. It sounds selfish to me to even think about this stuff?? Well that is what going on in my brain. So like I said I'm just putting it out there.

A good week ended with a bad night! Ugh!

I don't know what my problem was last night I wanted to eat anything and everything! I recorded most of it but I'm sure I was way over by more calories then I had down. I guess I was bored I watched 4 episodes of criminal minds and ate a lot!! But it's ok because it's not something I do very often so I can live with one off day! I probably would have eaten even more then I did. I actually did retain some restraint. Sometimes when I think I've eaten a lot I break it all down and realize even when I do go overboard it's never ever like it was in the past. So...... I'm still good! And I know for a fact that today will be a better day because I have proven it to myself that I am not the same! I am about 102 lbs away from my goal weight. Which is almost 100 lbs less then I was at my highest weight and that feels really good!! When I get down to the 199sss I will be on cloud 199!! Haha! I'm gonna get there I have never been surer of that in my life! Oh happy day!! I could actually live with the way I feel right now....... But I won't I have a goal and by golly for once in my life I'm gonna get there and then I will never again be where I am today!! I have decided to join curves again. I was a member in 2005 to 2007. Before I joined curves I had already lost 45 lbs after I joined curves I lost another 40lbs. Then I started gaining weight even while I was going there! But..... Drum roll please!! I am happy to say that I now weigh the lowest weight I got down to so I will lose lose lose more!! Yay!!

TGIF

I'm looking forward to the weekend. Nothing really planed day trip on sat! With the hubby and daughter and granddaughter!! It's always nice to get away just for the day!! It's supposed to be nice this weekend. I guess the last hooray! Haha. Physical therapy is helping so much I'm glad I'm going! I only have 5 more weeks left till I get off for winter! Yay!!

Eating = check

work outs 3x = check

Feeling better= check

It's all good!

I did it!

Today is a good day I finally hit my 60.2# weight loss and worked out 2 days in a row AND drum roll please did not eat any candy for over 24 hrs!! Ta da! Now I will go for 48! And so on! I know I can do I've gone weeks without candy before! I got this!

Physical therapy!

I have been having problems with my neck for some time now. In the last month it has gotten worse. I decided to go see my husbands ortho to have him check it out. He couldn't find anything by looking at the X-rays. He said I could try physical therapy and go back to him in a month! I started physical therapy the same day. They had an opening at a place close to my work. I went again today and it really seems to be helping already!! That makes me so happy!! I have been trying to get back on track ever since I was off after my husband had surgery I have been eating Halloween candy everyday!! Not a lot but still I shouldn't be eating it at all!! TODAY I WILL NOT EAT ONE SINGLE PEICE OF HALLOWEEN CANDY AT ALL!!!! Does that sound convincing?? I hope so cause now that it's out there I have to!!! (Not do it that is)) I am .8# more then my lowest weight so I'm good!! I am going to a week trial at curves to see if its something I want to do again. I had joined back in 05 when I had lost a lot of weight but stopped going in 07 when I had hernia surgery. I want to make sure it won't hurt my neck before I join!? I went yesterday and it didn't seem to bother me! Yay! I haven't walked in a while my knee has still been bothering me lately and it's getting really cold now! I need to do something because I have to start toning up since I have lost almost 60#. Luckily since I have lost it slowly I don't seem to have an excessive amount of lose skin! Thank God! And I know working out will help me get to my goal even faster!! I'm gonna get there there is no doubt in my mind!!


So today at work one of my bosses said that he has noticed that I have been shrinking every time he sees me I look smaller!! Finally!! I was beginning to wonder if these people were blind! Haha. I think sometimes I want people to notice and to say something. I don't know why I care about that it shouldn't be my motive to lose weight!! I'm still a work in progress I guess I always will be!......

Love this book!!

Check out this healthy tip! Had to post it!

Sat at work!

I'm catching up on my reading. I started a book the beginning of oct. it's called Healthy Choices for Women 100 days of Devotions for Mind, Body, and Spirit! I got behind last week cause I was home a lot but I just read something I thought was worth sharing! Physical Health is a choice: it is the result of HUNDREDS of small decisions that we make everyday of our lives. If we make decisions that promote good health, our bodies respond. But if we fall into bad habits and undisciplined lifestyles, we suffer tragic consequences! So what that says to me is even if we make one or two or even 10 mistakes in a day that won't ruin things for us! It's the 90 other things we do right! So don't let our mistakes define us! Don't let that be our excuse to keep messing up. We didn't get this way overnight and we won't change our brains that quickly either it's going to take years of retraining! I'm up for the challenge! I'm learning as I go! So far so good!!

Where am I now??

I'm kind of in a weird place right now. I have spent a lot of time at home lately. My hubby had knee surgery last week and I was home with him wed and thurs. I worked fri but was off sat thru wed cause if the Frankenstorm! Crazy! But luckily we were spared without any damage. So....... At home bored snacking and snacking why?? I have no idea? Maybe because everyone I live with are big snackers!! My husband is the worst and he doesn't have a weight problem!! And the equates to..... I now weigh 2# more then I did yesterday it said 4. Today 2! Am I worried? Upset? Surprised? Nope! Not at all. I'm just taking it 1 day at a time! I'm so very thankful for how well I've done and I know I will never ever ever go back to how I was! I am finally positive of that! I can finally be secure in the fact that I now know how to eat right. And I now have a new life be because of it! So even when I overeat a little then I don't go crazy! And I don't give myself permission to indulge all day long AND I have no problem waking up the next day and getting right back on track! I do however want to lose more weight before my cruise in feb. would I still love to lose another 40# before the end of the year. If I don't that's ok too!! For now I'm good and I'm happy!