So I am still going strong and making good choices. I am thrilled about the weight I have lost 44lbs now since April. I feel so much better for sure. I don't think I realize how much better it feels when I move around. Just getting off the couch is a struggle some days when you weigh almost 300lbs. But not anymore. Last week I carried my granddaughter up the stairs she only weighs 35lbs it was much easier then it used to be but I thought wow! This is how much I used to carry up everyday and more! That felt good!!! So here is the but...... When I walk by a mirror and see my profile my stomach is still so big!! I know it has gone down sooooo much since I started but when I see that, it's like I haven't even begun. I know it's going to take so much more time to get where I want to, need to be. I WILL get there. Now on the other hand..... Because with me the glass is always half full. I do like the way I look from the front view. Or should I say as I told my husband a few weeks ago. I'm not loving what I see in the mirror but I don't hate it either!! That's an accomplishment. Yesterday my husband said wow you are really moving your seat up much closer the you used to. He reminded me that I used to complain when I got in after him that he had my seat up so close. He said now when he gets in he has to move it back. Hehe!! So many things are changing on my body I can feel my knee bone sticking out more which I love. I have for so many years have has such fat knees and legs. That's the worst. Well I'm getting somewhere. I just need to keep it going. Can't wait to see all the many more changes my body will keep making. I absolutely LOVE it. It actually feels go to be me.........
I had a major crisis at steak and shake yesterday. On the way there I was looking up calories of their menu items. I had kind of narrowed it down as to what I would order. (I do this before we go anywhere to eat) I think planning ahead helps to make good choices. So anyways. I got in there and threw all caution to the wind and saw a skillet breakfast. It had portabello mushrooms eggs cheese hash browns so I
went for it. Then she said what would you like with it? Toast, bagel, PANCAKES?? So even tho pancakes are not a huge thing for me I ordered them. I figured I could use sugar free syrup. Anyways after the waitress leaves I look up the calories and it says 1040 calories. Omg! I started to have a complete panic attack!! Just the night before I had been thinking about that. I don't think I could ever even If I allowed myself. Even if God told me they wouldn't count, even if I had run 10 miles would I ever eat a 2000 calorie meal. Not even 1000 calories. So here I was ordering a 1040 calorie breakfast plus pancakes. What was I thinking. Who was that person who ordered that meal without even checking first?? Not me! Not the new me! So in a panic mode when the waitress stopped by to bring more coffee I asked her if it were to late to change my order?? After a few times going back and forth she assured me it wasn't a problem if u changed it. Thank God! So I ordered something with only 330 calories whew. Crisis averted!! YES!!
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