I'm getting ready to celebrate my birthday!

I am so thankful for where I am right now! It feels so good to be in a much better place mentally and physically. For once in a very long time I'm excited about another year!! Today was Kenzie's 5yr bday party and I had to prepare so food for it. It felt so good to have the energy to do what I needed to do!! I was finished early and I wasn't tired! And after it was over I wasn't tired either and my feet didn't hurt! Let me repeat that. My feet didn't hurt not even in the least!! Amazing! Incredible! Outstanding!! I love it!! I'm giving all the glory to God!! He is the only reason I am where I am!! And I am so very thankful!!

I made it through another big holiday!

I survived Thanksgiving!  I made it through a holiday without a gain!?  The question is did I?  My scale says I'm up 2lbs. But.... When I went to go workout today the scale said I was the same or maybe .5lbs lower. I'm gonna go with the dr type scale and not my 30$ digital one!  Especially since I'm sure it's a much better scale and I didn't gain!  I guess I did ok. I know I still ate more then I should have but I wasn't uncomfortable so I'd consider that a good thing I didn't stuff myself to the gills!  I think for now until after the beginning of next year I'm going to leave Mfp as a maintain and not lose calorie intake!?  I still want to lose more weight so I'm hoping I will. But I want to give myself the option to enjoy what I want If I want it!?


I started this last week but never finished it. I did change my calories! Haha

Happy Friday!!??

It would be much nicer if I didn't have to work on Saturday but I did have yesterday off!! I will be spending next week all day with my granddaughter. Her mom has been off work for the last 6 weeks and she is going back to work on Monday. I said I would keep her to help her save the money she would have to spend on daycare. I'm only working Monday and Tuesday next week and she can come with me. My hours are only 10-3. So it makes for a pretty short day! She's always good for me so it's no problem. Not much going on on the pool business this time of year! Looking forward to thanksgiving?? Not sure yes and no! I know I will do fine! And I plan to work out everyday so I know that will help!

So super excited about our cruise coming up in February. I feel so good for once in my life I have achieved something I actually hoped for! It feels amazing!! I really love my life right now. I feel good. I'm no longer on diabetes meds. I have new much smaller clothes. My daughter and granddaughter live with us and I get to spend almost everyday with them. My oldest daughter is going to have a baby in May. My son has a new good job! And I will be celebrating our 34th anniversary in dec! Love, love, love it!

So I'm just putting this out there!

Lately I have been thinking about all the attention I will and have been getting since I've lost weight. I catch my self and wonder am I doing this for all the right reasons? I think how nice it will be to not be the fattest person in my family. I'm talking about my extended family. In laws and such. I am still the fattest person in my immediate family!! So why is it that I want the attention for doing something that I need to do for my health?? It's not for more attention?? Is it?? I think about what people will say who haven't seen me in a long time! I imagine they will say wow!! I also think about how it will make someone in my family feel who also needs to lose a lot of weight? Will it make me feel good?? Will it make me feel bad for them?? Should I even be thinking about this stuff?? I haven't talked to anyone about this. It sounds selfish to me to even think about this stuff?? Well that is what going on in my brain. So like I said I'm just putting it out there.

A good week ended with a bad night! Ugh!

I don't know what my problem was last night I wanted to eat anything and everything! I recorded most of it but I'm sure I was way over by more calories then I had down. I guess I was bored I watched 4 episodes of criminal minds and ate a lot!! But it's ok because it's not something I do very often so I can live with one off day! I probably would have eaten even more then I did. I actually did retain some restraint. Sometimes when I think I've eaten a lot I break it all down and realize even when I do go overboard it's never ever like it was in the past. So...... I'm still good! And I know for a fact that today will be a better day because I have proven it to myself that I am not the same! I am about 102 lbs away from my goal weight. Which is almost 100 lbs less then I was at my highest weight and that feels really good!! When I get down to the 199sss I will be on cloud 199!! Haha! I'm gonna get there I have never been surer of that in my life! Oh happy day!! I could actually live with the way I feel right now....... But I won't I have a goal and by golly for once in my life I'm gonna get there and then I will never again be where I am today!! I have decided to join curves again. I was a member in 2005 to 2007. Before I joined curves I had already lost 45 lbs after I joined curves I lost another 40lbs. Then I started gaining weight even while I was going there! But..... Drum roll please!! I am happy to say that I now weigh the lowest weight I got down to so I will lose lose lose more!! Yay!!

TGIF

I'm looking forward to the weekend. Nothing really planed day trip on sat! With the hubby and daughter and granddaughter!! It's always nice to get away just for the day!! It's supposed to be nice this weekend. I guess the last hooray! Haha. Physical therapy is helping so much I'm glad I'm going! I only have 5 more weeks left till I get off for winter! Yay!!

Eating = check

work outs 3x = check

Feeling better= check

It's all good!

I did it!

Today is a good day I finally hit my 60.2# weight loss and worked out 2 days in a row AND drum roll please did not eat any candy for over 24 hrs!! Ta da! Now I will go for 48! And so on! I know I can do I've gone weeks without candy before! I got this!