I will do this!

I was thinking yesterday about how I have done so many things different this time! So many things I never did the last time. I know that I learn more stuff every journey I take. One thing I have never done that I want to do this time. I want to buy smaller pants and have to buy more smaller pants!! Uh what?? Yea every other time I have lost weight and bought smaller pants I get comfortable in my new size and don't end up losing more weight. This time I want to grow out of the two new pants I bought but the right way this I want them to be too big for me too!! I'm still very motivated and I'm going to do it!! My cruise is back on for feb and I have a feeling even tho I would have preferred the reason not be my dad got stomach cancer be the reason I didn't go. I am glad we didn't go because I will be a lot smaller then I would have been this feb!! So I'm really on a mission!!