I Can Change!

     I was feeling like I was starting to lose some of my focus.  I know that this time I want to change everything about how I was!  How I ate!  The lack of activity.  The lack of motivation to live a healthier life.  I can change all those things.  The voice that says when you eat something you shouldn't, that you already blew it so why not pig out?  There's always tomorrow?  There is no rush you will lose it sometime??  Well  I'm trying to override that voice in my head.  I don't have to listen to it right?  I make a mistake, its not the end of the world, its not over.  I didn't ruin my whole journey.  Keep on track!  My life is improving everyday.  It will continue to improve if I keep focused on the light at the end of the tunnel!  I want to reach that light!  I want to bask in the glorious light at the end of that tunnel that Ive never seen!  I can't imagine how bright it will be.  How awesome it will be when I wake up in the morning and I'm in the light.  What will that feel like?  I will find out I can change!

     OK so here's the deal I ate too much dinner tonight.  I don't count calories.  I don't count points.  I just try at every meal to eat approximately half of the amount that I used to eat.  Is that working?  Does that work?  Yes it does!  So getting back to the dinner tonight.  My wonderful husband picked up dinner from the best Chinese restaurant in the world!  No, really!  Ive been around the world! HAHA!  Well practically!  My dad was in the Air Force for 20 years.  Well of course I just couldn't help it and I told my self I could indulge!  Was that right?  Probably not?  But the difference is I will not let it get me off my track!  This train is going to keep on chugging!!  I wont let that be an excuse to let me get off at the station to grab a snack!  NO!  I'm drinking Jasmine tea that they also gave us with the dinner.  I will fill myself with that and not be tempted to go crazy!  I am not that person any more.  I don't ever want to be that person anymore.  I want her to get off this train and never get back on! I am the conductor and the caboose!  I control all the compartments on my train!  Yea, I don't know where all that came from?  HAHA!  Bottom line is I am different!  I can change I've seen so many people do it I can too!

     I'm watching Biggest Loser!   I love that show!  I love it even more when I'm right there with them!  Trying to stay on the ranch.