Wow where do I begin?

So here I am the 100th give or take 100 times I've decided to change my life!  HaHa!  Hmmmm! Where have you heard that before?  Ok so where to begin?  I'm 48 the mother of 3 and 1 grandchild!  I've been married 31 years!  Will be 32 in December!  Yes do the math I was married very young!  Was not overweight as a child.  Well if you consider putting on weight soon after I got married when I was still a child! HaHa! I was dating my now husband since I was 14.  After we had been together 1 year my family moved to Texas I was devastated!  I thought I was overweight when I was in middle school but only weighed 113 lbs!  After I moved to Texas I started putting on some weight.  About 15 lbs.  When I got married I probably weighed 125 to 130.  Then I started to put on more weight my new husband worked nights and I was bored!  I would cook for him and we would eat dinner at 1, 2, 3 am?  Yea I know healthy huh?  We decided to start a family after we were married 1 year.  We had a very rocky relationship but we were young so?? I took me a year to get pregnant and I had tried to lose weight so when I got pregnant with our first baby I weighed 137.  I gained 45 lbs not horrible? Well by the time I left the hospital I had already lost 20 lbs great huh?  I never lost the other 25 and continued to gain by the time I got pregnant with my second baby I was up to 180's.  I gained 26 lbs with the second baby.  Then the 3rd time I started at 213.  My baby boy is now 22 yrs old and I now weigh 279.  Ok there it is I said it I weigh 279!  Over the last almost 30 years I have gained and lost probably 200 lbs. My highest weight was probably 330 lbs. The last time I lost a lot of weight I got down to 238.  For the very first time in my life I didn't gain all my weight back hallelujah! That was back in 2007. I have however as you can see gained alot of my weight back but not all!  I now really do once and for all!!!!!!!!!!!  Want to be healthy for me and my family!  I have missed out on so much by living inside this enormous balloon I have become!  I have recently lost 13 lbs again.  I lost the same 13lbs last year!  But this time I don't want to lose it again next year!  I need the love and support of my friends and family! 

Wish me luck!

Bernice