I'm back!!

Today I feel better!!

      Ok so a lot has been going on!  Up down, up down!  I had not realized how far up I was, because my scale said 283-286.  When I went to the Dr's in March his scale said 297! whoops! Wow!! Shocker!! I had no idea I was creeping that close to 300 again!! How could it be??  Was it because I ate whatever I wanted?  Was it because the first time in 61/2 years I thought it was ok to drink real sodas again?!  Either way I was out of control.  I had stopped checking my blood sugar.  I had stopped taking half of my meds!  I don't know what happened to me why do I go so far off the deep end??  I had wanted to lose weight before my daughters wedding which is Sat by the way!!  I had absolutely NO motivation.  What did I tell my Dr?  I don't know what happened to me I had gained 15 lbs the 3 months before I went to see him and here I was another 15lbs!!

So, I decided to first of all before I went back to the Drs I knew I needed to get under some control!! I decided the first thing was to cut out soda!! So I did!! diet ones too!!  In thinking about that now I probably weighed more then 300 before I did that I just didn't have a good scale!!  Then I started cutting back on snacking and eating to much sugary stuff. I tried to cut back on my intake of everything..  I was doing pretty good!  On my scale I was down about 10lbs.  Then one day I lost 20lbs then 2days later I gained 10lbs!!  So do you get where I'm going here?? Yep it was time to invest in a new scale!!  Well that wasn't fun either It was 6lbs more then the highest number on my old scale so now I have gained 16lbs!!What the H***!!!

On Mon. April 30th a customer came in to my store and I noticed he had lost a significant amount of weight I asked him what his secret was even though I was a little afraid it was because he was ill??   No,  it was because he had started using the my fitness pal app on his iPhone!!  I had joined that a long time ago but was never consistent!  Go figure!!  Any ways he also told me his wife who had more to lose then him had been using it for a year and had already lost 100lbs!!  Wow!! that's for me.. 

It has been 50 days and the good news is I went back to my Dr today and I have lost 26lbs!!! YAY me!! I am still about 8lbs away form my lowest weight in 2010,  But I'm getting there!!  I have to admit I am scared tho. 

I talked to my Dr about that today he told me just take it one day at a time!!  Who knows maybe this time................

Wish me luck!

Where has the time gone?

I am up on my weight and I have lost some already but I am not motivated. I'm going to get re-motivated!!!! I'm going to start using the my fitness app. We will see how it goes!

Every day is a new Day!

It has been such a long time since I have been on here.  What's been going on?  I have been hanging in there!  I am about 8 lbs up right now and I have re dedicated myself to this on going battle.  I have new motivation now.  # 1 my wonderful parents are taking me and my hubby on a cruise in Feb.  I don't want to be the fat girl who's embarrassed to be in public in a bathing suite.  I want to enjoy my first cruise.  I want it to be the best experience ever!  I want to blend in with everyone else.  I have to admit that I am very afraid of the loose skin issue but I can't let that stop me.  #2 my daughter who will be 30 and in June of 2012 she will be getting married!  My first out of 3 children to finally get married.  I can't wait!  I know the pictures will be around forever and I want to look good not be the fat Mom!  The other day I was telling my granddaughter that something was wide and she said it's fat like you granma!  I really wasn't upset with her she is only 3.  I did tell her that some people would get their feelings hurt if she said that to them.  I am secure with who I am and what I am FAT!  I'm OK with that but I do want to look and feel better!  So the reason I am getting back into this is because I want to eat right now some really cheese nachos with jalapenos but I decided I would write instead!  I need to find other things to do besides eat!  Well its getting late now and I guess I will go to bed!

Wish me luck!?

I'm in my groove!

I have had a good week with my eating!  I have to say I am very proud of myself!  I have soooooooooo much energy!  I'ts amazing!  I love it!  I have been cleaning a lot!  I'ts  awesome!

It's been a long long time. But I'm back!

I am back in full swing of things back to work full time.  A lot has been going on since I last blogged.  Some good some not so good at all.  But with the Grace and Mercy of God everyone is ok.  Just some trials that we all go through.  I will survive.  The good news is even though I have been tested lately I have been able to....... wait for it ......... wait for it! I have for the very first time in my entire adult life have managed to maintain!!!!  Yes I said it I have MAINTAINED all my weight loss!  WOW!  I am very proud of my self.  I helps me to think that maybe I have changed?  Maybe this time I will be once and for all able to lose all my weight and maintain it??  We shall see?  I do however have some new motivation my daughter Michelle will be getting married on Sat June 16th 2012.  I would be so awesome to lose 100 lbs by then??  I know I can do it if I put my mind to it.  It really feels good to get motivated again and not have to start from a higher weight for a change.  I started doing the low carb again 2 weeks ago I do great on the weekdays not so great on the weekends.  I end up losing about 4 lbs during the week then gain almost all of it back on the weekends.  Its not like I'm going hog wild or something.  You would think I would at least maintain the wight loss on the weekend.?!  Well I'm just going to have to be much tougher on the weekends too!   I want to be the HOT mother of the bride at her wedding! HAHAHAHAHA!   Well I guess this is good for now.  I will be getting back to posting more frequently I really think it helps.

Not such a great weekend!

It was the 5th anniversary of the death of our 27 year old nephew.  We had a celebration day!  We miss him but we are very thankful for the time we had with him!  He had a brain tumor that he didn't survive.  His wife asked me to speak at the cemetery we all got together and let off some balloons to honor him and his life!  Later that night we had a party at his Mothers house.  There was lots of food and I ate way too much!  I'm pretty sure I gained like 4 lbs this weekend!  Will have to get that off really quick!  Leaving for Texas on Thurs AM.  Don't want to pack those 4 lbs with me also!  Not off to a great start tho!  I was bored last night and made choc chip cookies!  So I ate 2 this morning.  Going to have to get those out of here quick!
Well gotta get busy much to do to get ready for the trip!

I have been in hibernation!

I have been off work since Dec 13th.  I am taking care of my granddaughter for the winter.  Her and her mother are living with us right now since her and her boyfriend split up.  It is nice having them here but not always easy.  I don't really get online much so that's why I haven't blogged.  I haven't been trying to hard to lose weight lately but have managed to maintain the wight i lost before.  I am happy for the first time ever I got through Thanksgiving, Christmas and New Years with out a gain!  I went to the Dr for a check up the 2 days before Thanksgiving and went back on Jan 24 I was up 2lbs that day but I'm gonna blame that on my heavy boots! HAHA!  On my scale it said I had lost a few lbs but oh well I was happy and so was my Dr.  I am on medication for my diabetes and had been missing my morning doses since I'm not working anymore I forget.  But my blood sugar levels are great!!!!  I hope when I go back to the Dr in March I can lower my dose?

We will be going to Texas on Thurs February 10th looking  forward to seeing my family again! YAY!  We are really crazy but we are driving!  We like to hit the open road.  We are taking our grandbaby also.  So I probably wont be posting much till I go back to work on March 1st