I have goals!

     Last night when I went to bed I started thinking in 11 months my oldest daughter will be 30!  OMGosh!  I can hardly believe it!  How is that possible?  So I decided I want to lose 130#.  I want to be the weight I was before I got pregnant with her by her 30th!!  That's and average of 15# a month!  I really think I can do it!!  I need something to give me a drive so that once and for all I reach my goal!!  This is it!  I'm going to do it this time.  So here are my goals, I want to exercise more, drink more water, and eat less!  No problem?  I can do that?  I'm feeling better and better every day and I want to continue feeling even better!  I want to be the size God created me to be.  I don't want to be super-sized any more.  I used to pray that I would wake up and not be fat anymore.  I just realized that God, who is the God of miracles can do anything!  Right?  So why cant he make me thin overnight?  I  realized that we do need his help, but we have to take the first step.  We have to make the decision to make changes in our lives, if he made me thin overnight what would I learn?  Nothing!  I would still think I could eat what I was eating to get to where I am today....  I now know that it is one day at a time, one wise choice at a time.  There is no quick fix!  We have the power within ourselves to make those choices.  God gave us free will.  We can choose to believe in him.  We can choose to ask his son to come into our hearts and give us eternal life.  And we can choose what we put in our mouths everyday.  God will be there with us holding our hands helping us make the right choices if we just ask.  That's what I'm doing I'm asking for his help.  I want to be healthy for the family that he blessed me with.  The power is within us if we choose to tap into it.  I also need help and support from my family but most of all my friends who are on the same journey as me.  People who understand what it's like to be me.  If someone hasn't had a substantial amount of weight to lose they cant possibly understand?

I Survived!!

   Well I did it!  It was definitely and experience!  And next week I'm going back for more!  OK so yes it was a workout and yes i barley survived!  I think i was actually doing what i was supposed to about 20% of the time! haha!  But it was fun!  I know if I continue it will get easier and I will catch on.  I don't know if I will be able to move tomorrow?  It was good because they dim the lights and have disco lights.  Everybody was so busy trying to keep up themselves so they didn't really have time to watch me mess up!  Thank God! 

     I know this will make a big difference in my weight loss journey!  Every little bit helps.  My physical and non physical challenges this week for Shrinkvivor were to rack up workout minutes and do not make any trips to fast food restaurants!  So far so good!  I will have to put in my weight on Wed.  I had lost like 1.5# but today I was back up so??? 

ZUMBA??? Who me?

Today I'm gonna do something I haven't done in i don't know like 30 years??  I'm actually going to go to an exercise class!! And boy am i scared!  HAHA! not really!  Well maybe just a tad!  I keep hearing about Zumba on  the Sisterhood so why not?  I have invited my sister in law to go with me and my niece is going also!  Should be very interesting??  I don't know if I will be doing more exercise of laughing at myself?  Probably a lot of both.      

Had a good weekend!  Altho I did have to work on Sat while my whole family went to Kings Dominion!(and amusement park)  And I do mean my whole family including my precious granddaughter!  They all had a good time.

Well wish me luck tonight I will let you know how it goes!

It's only a game?

  Yea so I was a little upset that I got kicked off my tribe last night!  But, apparently someone else got very upset!  I heard she said she her teammates were all fat and she hopes they die young!  Wow!  Someone took that a bit to serious?  Now I don't feel quite as bad! hahaha!  OK, so I guess the whole point of the game is to lose weight anyways?  So I guess we will all be winners? 

Tribe EXILE? What?

     So I just found out I'm the first one to get kicked off my tribe!  I'm kinda surprised how much it upset me!  I'm guessing my team voted me off?  If no one on the team votes anyone off then the person with the lowest % of weight loss goes home!  I'm pretty sure I didn't have the lowest %?   So what this means is I can still stay in the game I just wont have a chance so win the Grand Prize!  I kinda feel like the person who gets picked last for a game or something?  Not something I experienced as a child but I'm guessing that's how it must feel?  I guess I didn't spend enough time on Twitter getting to know everybody?  Oh well nothing I can do now!  Part of me wants to just give up on the game!  All I have to do is stop weighing in!  I'm just kinda feeling left out!  Well I'll see how it goes?  It also made me want to eat something really bad but I'm not gonna do it!  It's not worth it!  I'll get over it!  Whatever!

shrinkvivor weekly challenge week#2

     So, after the fist week of the challenge I did really well I lost 4.4# not to shabby!  However the physical challenge was to walk, run, jog, etc.. miles and the other thing was to drink water.  I was supposed to drink half my weight in water.  I did neither of those!  I feel really bad and I can list tons of excuses but why bother?  Point being I didn't do it!  At least I lost a good amount of weight so we will see?  I will do better next week for sure!!!

Life is so good!

     Got off early today had a Dr. appt.  So I decided to go get my car inspected before!  Ok, well this part isn't so good I failed the inspection!  My hubby said I should have told him I was going to get it done so he could have checked it over first.  Well there were several small things but he said 1 of my tires didn't pass and the other one wasn't far behind.  So I guess I need 2 new tires?  After my Dr appt. which went very well!  I was down 10# since last month.  That made me and my Dr happy!  I went to my daughters and she made me an amazing dinner.  It was so yummy!  I served myself a small portion, and for desert she made mini choc chip cookies I ate 1 very slowly!  But that was all! It was really nice spending time with her we don't get to spend a lot of time alone.  I truly love my family so much they are the most important thing to me!  I'm so lucky to have them!  I'm feeling more confident then I have felt in such a long time!  It feels great!