Enjoying life again!

I'm feeling so good right now so strong!! Hope to keep up this feeling!! I know with Gods help I will overcome!! I got up early this morning and walked for almost an hour!! We went out to eat 2x today and I still only at 700 cals for both meals!! Amazing grace!!

We can run but we can't hide! (well some of us can run)

We are a walking billboard for our addiction!! There are so many people out there with problems way worse then ours but theirs doesn't show! Everyday we walk by people that maybe beat their family, addicted to porn, are child molesters, rob people, kill people,you get the picture! They can hide from their addictions most people besides their victims will never know? It's not written all over them like ours is. All over our chubby faces, our big thighs, it's everywhere, people know our addiction. They think we are weak, lazy, out if control! Eat all
the time. I don't want to be one of those people anymore. I want to be strong and energetic. I want to run and hide if I want to.

I was not an overweight child I want to find out where I turned the corner to obesity...... If I can find that out I can hopefully solve the mystery and get my life back. The one I was meant to live. The one without regrets. The one without limitations.

Yummy dinner

I'm eating a really good dinner I had to put it out there! I made triple health English muffin pizzas and I also tried the thin round multigrain bread. I put marinara,low fat mozzarella, turkey pepperoni, banana peppers, lean ham, marinated mushrooms and for all 4 it was only 445 calories delish!!

No more excuses

I have been going strong for 3.5 months now!  Feeling pretty good I am down 38lbs since then.  I am still motivated.  The secret this time is My Fitness Pal app on my phone.  It keeps me constantly aware of all of my calories.  I try to plan ahead before we go out to eat (which we still do a lot)) but I make much better choices.  This is about the time where I usually struggle.  At about the 3 month mark I start to get tired of keeping track of everything that is going in my mouth..  But guess what so far I don't feel like that as a matter of fact I'm addicted to counting calories..  Its crazy!  But its my life right now, today right this second.  Can I keep it up?? I don't know I sure hope so!  For once in my life I want to do this go all the way, cross the finish line, go the distance..........

Good healthy lunch!

I'm feeling so good today! I feel good with where I'm going on this latest journey!! I love when I am in control what happens to make me lose that feeling of accomplishment? Why do I give up? How can I hold on to this? This time what can I do different so I don't have to lose the same weight I lost a few times before? WHY???? I'm going to do my very best this time to find that out!! Let's do this!!

I'm proud!

I did 2 things I haven't ever done before today!
1 I went for a walk while everyone was
still sleeping. ( I never walk)

2 I went to Red Robin and got a burger without a bun and salad instead of fries!! I usually get the buffalo clucks and fries which are about 2000 calories I found out today!! Wow!! Didn't know!! Didn't care!
I do now! Thanks my fitness pal!!

Here's what I have learned today!

First of all I would like to give praises to God!! With his help and grace everything went better then I expected with the colonoscopy!!! Thank you Jesus!! Everything looked good!! I do however have to go back next week for an endoscopy.

So I have been very successful on my current journey of weight loss. I was thinking why hasn't God answered my prayers before when I asked him to help me with this? I didn't want to do things the hard way!!! I wanted a miracle. I wanted overnight success. I wanted to go to bed morbidly obese and wake up perfectly skinny!! I know that God is mighty I know he can do anything so why not this!? I now understand that he is right here with me everyday every step of the way leading me, encouraging me. What would I possibly learn with an overnight miracle?! Absolutely nothing!! I know he has been so patiently waiting for me to open the door and let him in to lead me on my path to my final destination HEALTHY!!

Thank you Lord for loving me the same fat or skinny. Near to you or far away! You love me all the same!