Hungry day??

For some reason I have been hungry today. I'm sure it's because it's so slow at work and idle hands want to eat!! Luckily I managed to eat low calorie stuff and still came in under my target! I know the only way I'm going to reach my goal of 100# list this year is to exercise way more! Unfortunately I haven't been motivated to do that since I haven't been able to walk because of my knee. So now I have lost the desire to do so! I did go for a walk today at work. I thought about going again when I got home but I needed to run a few errands after work and picked up some dinner. When I finished dinner it was already 8 and really dark and probably pretty cool also!? After I get off tomorrow I have a bible study class won't be home till 8:30-9 so tomorrow is out too!! I don't know why I can't be happy with how far I have come?? Why do I need to put extra pressure on myself?? It's like my head want to sabotage my heart? I am going to have to work on that! Take it one day at a time! Today was a good day I will take that and be happy!

Today is the day!

Not sure what that means but it's what popped on my head! It's a song I hear on the radio. Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
Today is the day You have made
I will rejoice and be glad in it
And I won`t worry about tomorrow
I`m trusting in what You say
Today is the day.

That's how I feel I didn't do too well yesterday. And of course the scale reflected that today but I'm not going to beat myself up in just going to so better today! I changed my fitness pal again. I started out at 2# per week changed it to 1.5#. And now I'm back to 2#. So I was way over yesterday after I changed! I'm on a mission and the only way to get there is to buckle down! So here I go!

2012 Graves Mountain Apple Festival

We had a great time yesterday. It was a nice day! Lots and lots of walking!!

I would love to be under 200# by the end of 2012!

What and amazing year it would be if I could do that! I already have been very successful this year much better then most almost 60 lbs since April. I have been convincing myself that there is no rush. No reason to push your self harder then you have to. You didn't get this way overnight so...... But.... Now I know for sure I'm going on the cruise in feb and it would be soooooooooo awesome to be under 200 lbs I need to lose another 41 lbs that doesn't seem realistic does it?? I lost the first 50 in four months and I'm finally on a roll again. My appetite has decreased significantly. I started walking again last week but then my knee started bothering me and haven't been able to walk this week. I'm so excited to be where I am right now mentally, physically and spiritually. I'm just going to see how it goes. Every other time in my life that I have wanted to lose a lot of weight for I was never very successful. This time I have actually done it!! Living and loving life again! :)

I am so excited today!!

I have finally worked my way through my second plateau. I have lost more weight this week then I have in the last month!! I am so glad I have stuck it out this long! What a awesome feeling knowing that I can and have changed my life for good!!?? The other day my husband actually told me he doesn't think I will ever go back to the way I was!! That meant a lot to me! I don't ever want to go back to that. I know that I would have never been able to do this without Gods help. I'm not strong enough on my own!!

I will do this!

I was thinking yesterday about how I have done so many things different this time! So many things I never did the last time. I know that I learn more stuff every journey I take. One thing I have never done that I want to do this time. I want to buy smaller pants and have to buy more smaller pants!! Uh what?? Yea every other time I have lost weight and bought smaller pants I get comfortable in my new size and don't end up losing more weight. This time I want to grow out of the two new pants I bought but the right way this I want them to be too big for me too!! I'm still very motivated and I'm going to do it!! My cruise is back on for feb and I have a feeling even tho I would have preferred the reason not be my dad got stomach cancer be the reason I didn't go. I am glad we didn't go because I will be a lot smaller then I would have been this feb!! So I'm really on a mission!!

I have been doing this for longer then I ever have!

I realized yesterday I have been at this for 6 months. That I a record for me. Usually by now I would have taken the "break". Because I lost 50 lbs. I deserve a break!! Well I didn't let that stop me. I have slowed down and I have only lost 55lbs. I say only!! That's crazy. Why do I continue to sell myself short?? That's a lot of weight. I would prefer it be more at this point. I have to be satisfied with how far I've come the fact that I'm still going. Counting my calories everyday. I really believe dare I believe?? Yes I believe I'm actually going to do it this time. Do you have any idea how it feels to put on a pair of jeans that I couldn't wear 6 months ago and by the end of the day if I wasn't wearing a belt they would be in the floor?? It feels amazing! Life is amazing thru these rose colored glasses. But really I feel like I'm living again. Everything is so much easier. I'm happy I still have a very long way to go but at least I have a pretty good head start on my journey to destination healthy!!